In the world of chronic pain sufferers, this is referred to
as, painsomnia: insomnia due to pain. On these nights, my dreams are so vivid and real which always seems strange to me since I don't sleep for more than an hour or so at a time. Last night, I dreamt of death. It wasn't mine but I could have prevented it, I was preoccupied. I woke up in a jolt.
I don't know much about dream analogy, however, in considering my thoughts and choices lately...
I think that dream was about the death of who I was, "my past life, before the diagnosis", and my preoccupation was with my current choices...to move on, to choose life and my dreams over hanging on to a life that is no longer an option. After four years, I really feel ok letting that part of me go, I feel as if I have a new set of chances to take and I am not afraid to face them.
Do you have issues with painsomnia? How do you handle it? Have you found a way that allows you to rest through the pain? Personally, I have to get out of bed. The pressure against my body, when lying down, is just too painful and effects me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I will spend the rest of the day nodding off from exhaustion and hoping that tonight will not be a repeat of last night.
Have a good Sunday and do something that makes you happy!
I wish you plenty...of support, patience, love, & spoons!
((((Gentle Hugs))))
Monica Reents
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