What a little sunshine can do!

I love this time of year! Sitting in the comfort of our Lazyboy recliner, I am able to watch the sunrise behind our trees. What a beautiful sight! This picture was taken early one morning when my pain was especially high and my mind couldn't focus on anything else...until I noticed how the sun began filtering through the trees, casting shadows, and creating a dream-like view.
   I was able to allow my mind to drift off into this other place... where pain does not exist and life is simple again. Even if only for a for a few moments.

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   The warmth of the sun is a magical thing! It has the power to calm my overactive nerves. I find such great writing inspiration when I am outdoors. The sights and sounds and smells build my creativity to new heights that I just don't reach when I am indoors. I dream of living somewhere that is always above 75 degrees with the sunshine glowing every day. I can almost imagine my pain slipping into submission against the warm surroundings.

   On the realistic side, if I awoke without pain, I would think that I had not survived the night! For instance, this morning I woke up with heaviness in my arms, hands, and legs (the left leg hurts to the bone), and the inability to move with any amount of speed or precision. My left leg often feels like it is full of jello, you know the kind that turns into cement when it settles. It's extremely difficult to motivate limbs that have created their own type of 'existence'. I fear what the future may hold for this body of mine.
   However, my mind is doing it's best to become the strength that holds everything together. My memory is weaker than it used to be, which is a problem experienced by those of us with syringomyelia and/or fibromyalgia. But that is what notebooks and phones that you can talk to or make notes in are for. Our personal handheld-memory boxes...with the added bonus of being able to set alarms!

   I will be adding to my medical resume this Friday when I have another surgery. This one is mild compared to my spinal surgeries. I am having laparoscopic surgery for my left ovary. I have a suspicious and painful cyst that has plagued my body for about one year. I'm tired of dealing with it. So, my doctor will look at the cyst to get a good visual of what he is dealing with, then remove the whole ovary. A few days of rest and soreness will be what it takes to rid myself of one of my body's pains. Yes, please!

   I intend to write, read, and color during recovery. There are some deadlines coming up that I would love to meet. As well as, work on this book of poetry that I would like to see published sometime this year. Like most of us, I have many projects, ideas, wants, and wishes that make me feel like I have floated up to the moon once completed. But, it is my dreams that keep my heart and soul thriving!

Have Faith in Yourself!


Monica